Revolutionary.

I am not a prophet, but sometimes I have prophetic dreams. - Huey Freeman

I'm sitting here in my apartment with Maro curled up next to my feet wondering about the world again, and how my life has taken so many strange strides to bring me where I am. Since I was little I believed that I would be a force of change... though I didn't really understand what exactly needed changing.

In college I began to understand a little more about what was wrong with the world, largely because I was incredibly guilty of this sin.

Now, I find myself stuck in the real world, where the people who have power to make a change do very little if anything at all to make a difference... and the people with the great ideas, the revolutionaries, fall flat because the revolution hasn't figured out how to lift the shackles of the 9 to 5.

And I'm finding why everyone talks about how college was the best time of their lives. 95% of the population is struggling through their daily toils to make it through the weekend. Everyone wants a better job, more money, someone to settle down with, a new house... security. And the search lasts your entire lifetime and in many cases never really produces any satisfying results.

To my fellow university graduates, we will all end the same. We will afford a house and own it by our mid to late 30's. We will find someone we either love or like a lot and settle down with them. Some of us will divorce, but only after we have kids. Our kids will go to good colleges because we went to good colleges. And we will die at a hopefully old age in the little homes that we built for ourselves.

I will die this way as well. Not only do I know it, I also hope for it. What I hope to do along the way is get over myself and my troubles. To feel the need to write less about men and why/how they suck because they've been doing it for several millennia. To not only identify things that need to change around me, but to actually change them.

And when I'm done, maybe a few less people will feel lonely. People will listen more to the topics that need to be listened to. The world will open its eyes just a little bit wider to the plight of the gay, the lesbian and everything in between (but mostly the latter two). Small business won't come to underdeveloped countries to take advantage of low wage standards and charge the same goddamn prices - popping up like a bunch of boutique Nike sweatshops.

It may happen or it may not. And if it does happen, it may not be enough. If you want change, maybe it just needs to happen in yourself or your house or your town. You don't need to end segregation. You don't need to stop the War... but you do need to do something.